I don't really have anything extra special to blog about today. I just figured it's been a while and I'm not doing anything else so why not?
I've been doing a lot of Christmas shopping and lazing about these past few days. I've been enjoying the drink a bit too much and I have been listening to French music, at least in a round about sort of way. If you know me, you might know that I'm not a huge fan of the French in general, without real reason or cause. But really, some of the French music isn't terrible. I like it. Hey, the French can't get it all wrong.
I watched an interview of Joseph Gordon-Levitt on Youtube. It was excessively adorable and a bit strange. But it was an interview with Nylon magazine, which I think it kind of a strange publication; though in all honesty I have yet to read it. Either way, back to Mr. Gordon-Levitt. You might remember him as a shaggy haired teenager on 3rd Rock from the Sun or as the suave slicked back dreamer in Inception. I'll admit he caught my attention fully after Inception though I did enjoy his performance in 500 Days of Summer with Zooey Deschanel, a woman I love and hate at the same time. All that aside, in that interview with Nylon, Joseph mentioned that he likes women who speak French. Unfortunately I will never be one of those women. Not just because of my aforementioned distaste for French things. Languages are hard. I believe I should master Spanish, a language that people just assume I know because I happen to have more melanin than others, before I pick up any other languages.
All this got me to thinking, what kind of a woman do I want to be? I mean, I have already realized that I have no idea what I want to do when I grow up (which scarily is sort of right now, sort of not), but I have been thinking about what kind of lifestyle I want to have. I figure if I can manage that task first, in theory, I should be able to work from there to find a job that will allow me to live as I want to. But then again, this is all speculation. As is much of what comes out of my mouth and head.
Either way, I want to be a stylish, though not necessarily trendy, woman. I want to have good taste, in all things. I want to be knowledgeable of lots of things and passionate about a select few. I want to own clever things that are functional and aesthetically pleasing. I want to be able to create clever, functional things. I want to be able to give of myself freely, both in time and spirit.
I want to fall in love with a man who will love me despite the fact that I will be neurotic for all time, no matter how much I try to improve myself. I want to be the kind of woman that attracts a man that will happily surprise me. Someone who can handle my crazies but knows that I'm not really crazy, who will accept that I will almost always drop anything and everything I'm doing to go to the aid of my family. Someone who sees that as a virtue and not some annoying fault to correct or put up with. I want to fall in love with someone that I can just look at and know, not guess or hope but know, that being married to him will make my life better from that moment on.
So yea... I don't know how to be this person I imagine in my head. But I guess I can thank Joseph Gordon-Levitt for making me at least think about it.
